pining

how i miss royal china, mitsukoshi, kiku, four seasons, gold mine, japan center, arigato, arang, patisserie valerie, cafe concerto, that corner shop near soas, and the rest. :'(

i want the crispy aromatic duck, ika uni, beef teriyaki, 烧鸭饭，水蒸蛋，gyu don, ox tongue and raw beef, tirasmisu, chocolate mousse, 牛腩饭.... carbonara.. chicken and mushroom pie.. 羊肉串... the list goes on and on...

tapao? anyone?

extra number

i have in my possession and subscription an extra mobile number.. have no idea what to do with it.. it's basically RM30 monthly lying idle. ugh~ wasteful wasteful wasteful

guess what.. i'm applying for jobs all over again. and as usual, it's a bitch. with every additional job applied, my self-esteem drop a lil. it's an inverse relation. marginal in characteristic. another ugh~

i can't help to think currently my 'unhealthy', complex relationships are getting complicated.. slowly it causing quite a bit of confusion and misunderstanding. whilst that, i have to hold my tongue to avoid awkward situation to my real deal. i'm quite confident that the real deal hadn't got the slightest clue on what's goin. and i finally finished my lyric to a song.. a song that's yet to be written. will 'outsource' it to people with the relevant skills. any song that i produce would probably be trash.

comfort

lately, i've caught myself smirking randomly. it's fine when there is nobody around. but it's embarrassing when someone else sees it. i ought to stop. damn..

i'm losing my touches. i can't do what i could no longer. too much fear and too little courage. courage is practically non-existance anymore. i spend my days contemplating without any actual decisions. it's like i can't navigate my life.

the very heart of the problem is disparities between what i want and what i can get. periphery problems are like the worth of such acts and risk appetites. in whichever case, it takes two party to tango or fight.

on the issue regarding my relocation to singapore. hmm... it will takes at least one dramatic reason for me to do that. i've kinda settled in my reasonably comfortable zone in penang. why won't i be?

真的行吗？

没人可以找人，没兵可以练兵，没有势可以造势。真的行吗？

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i had to take shelter at a friend's place yesterday. i had a place without electricity for a night. haha...
forgot to pay the bill. came as to no surprise..

i thought i had a lot to write whilst in office. my mind is all blank now. damn...

oh yea.. i'm rooting for sei lui bao to win !