once upon a time (part one) - introduction

once upon a time, there was a country in the far far away land. not the far far away in shrek, just it is far far away. the country was known as lasayaim. do not ask me what kind of rubbish name is that, just take it as it is. it was a very lovely and beautiful four seasoned country. it's majestic mountains and beaches provided means of pleasure. not sex pleasure, but the other kind of pleasure, eg. fishing, rock climbing, snorkeling, hunting, etc. although aphrodisiacs like eurycomalongifolia and labisa pumila can easily be found in the forest.
the native people living in this countries lived in trees as they are quite primitive. not the type which was portrayed in the swiss family Robinsons type but the other type you see in national geographic, or discovery channel. some foreign scholars dispute that their brains are the size of a big peanut. perhaps two big peanuts. i would like to just add my personal comment here, i think they are the size of their ball, note it is singular and NOT plural. however, this has never been scientifically proven because foreign scholars could not really be bothered to carry out this research due to the lack of interests and point altogether. they could not help but to comment only. and i may just point out that the result of the local researchers is not exactly reliable. the extend of the capability of the country can be summarised by the comment on one of their products, "its name was like a disease and it was built in jungles by people who wear leaves for shoes."- J. Clarkson.



that's all the time i have for today... let me know whether anybody at all would like to continue hearing, or reading, this story. i will not write until somebody answer me!
you know the feeling of talking to air? where everybody just ignore you and you end up feeling like an idiot. screw you guys.

british tv

they are.... not exactly appalling, though not quite good. 

it's either you have good 3 channels to watch at once or nothing at all for hours. mostly american sitcoms anyway.. and a pitiful few of british. by british i do not mean soap dramas like EastEnders or Emmerdale. but yea... americans mostly..  

and i just watched a program on jack and the bean stalk. remember? when we were just mere baby goats. you know i meant kids, no? anyway.. remember
Fee! Fie! Foe! Fum!
I smell the blood of an Englishman.
Be he 'live, or be he dead,
I'll grind his bones to make my bread.

now that we're older, we can understand the stories a lil better. and now see how those people, whoever they are, that came up with these stories are trying to tell us about this big bad world.
back to our jack and the bean stalk story, you lot know how the story went yea? i will assume yes. in this story, jack , the so called hero, is a sinister and a dishonest man, or boy. he hid in the giant's, our poor victim here who was killed, house and rob him of his fortunes. as i recall, the giant was not even bothering anybody. how do you justify that?

boredom

just as i thought i was immune to boredom, i felt like dying. arrggghhhh

a big thank to hsbc who screw me good. leave me hanging without my debit and credit cards. without it i'm penniless. apart from 10quid jia gave me. thus, i'm pretty much stuck at home with nothing much to do. actually nothing to do at all. well, i can clean the house but i'm not going to do that. hah!

aikseng went off to edinburgh, leaving me behind. my mates planned to go to the zoo, that's why i did not want to tag along, but end up in bicester village. and i have not done any christmas shopping yet. i'm currently singing off key very loudly at home. songs that remind me 你都有今天. nobody's home anyway plus there is NOTHING on the box with sound and moving pictures. 

i've just message people on msn telling them i'm bored. some of they're answers:-
*starvenus* says: (14:28:05)
join the club
*starvenus* says: (14:28:08)
im bored too
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Kang Zarul says: (14:28:12)
me too 

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not many people are online by the way. nobody had any suggestion on what we should do.

what day is it today?

is it "ugly people day" today? you know like children's day, mother's day... in place of children and mums are ugly people...when they all come out in hoard to celebrate their utter terrible look.. i saw a bunch of ugly people on the way to school... like really head turners.. in the bus, a pair of girls were sitting in front of me... omg, i honestly think they're ugly. by the way, i think they're gay... but definately NOT a beautiful couple... but compatible though..

on the way back in waterloo station, an asian man dressed in santa suit wished me merry christmas and handed me a bag of rubbish. how nice of ebay... yes, ebay seemed desprate.. sales must be really appalling.. they deserve it anyway

si lai 整个师奶

有很多人说我是个师奶。我真的是吗？ 奇怪，因为我不觉得我是。

我是喜欢打麻将，做点儿饭，看看我花儿，和没东西干的时候去百货商店走一走。这儿不是个师奶干的事情而已吧。应该有很多差不多我年纪的人也干。

我朋友说看不过眼我这儿样‘师奶’，说恶心。

am i too 'si lai'? 

and do i flail my hand too much?

20kg of rice

is it me or 3 person finishing 20kg of rice in 3 months seem a bit of excessive. i do not remember wasting any rice. we finish all the rice before we cook fresh ones. so yea, we ate 20kg of rice in 3 months. actually it's not a full 3 months. more of 2 months and 2 weeks. full october and november, me mates did not get back until the 20th of september. i think. yea, i move in on the 10th. they did not move in until more than a week later. that means we ate 20kg of rice in 2 months and slightly more than a week. no wonder i'm gaining weight. 

这几天冷的很。冷的起床也不想。其实我还有很多事情要办。但是我还做在这谈天。我对我自己真没法子。有事情不要办，等到时间不够还来急。

我有几个朋友能为了膣什么都行。有的是为了屌。真没眼看。

 

debt

the US public debt amount to USD 10,663,306,735,490.99 today and still growing every minute. that's more than 10 and a half trillion. the sustainability of this debt is highly questionable. credit is a promise to pay with future earnings. the rate of increase of debt is much faster than the rate of increase in real income. so how could one manage to pay off a rising debt which is faster than real income? the us economy is a time bomb which is set to go off, perhaps not within the next 5 years at least, when the funding of the debt stop. just like the recent liquidity crisis, but at a much larger scale.
so which will be the new power house? china or india or gulf countries or who? china and india has problems of their own and it's difficult to picture them as the power house. gulf countries aren't any better than c&i. so what will the world come to in 10 or 20 years time?

stupid cheap school

stupid school revoke our athens account. fuckers. cheapskate. 

tv junkie

i spend my days watching trash tv while inflating my work pile. watching 'who's line is it anyway' for two hours, '8 simple rules' for 2 hours, 'will and grace' and 'friends' add up to another 2 hours. plus my special chair which has a place to hold the tv remote, or in a beer, is just darling. got it from asda for a good deal two years ago for 6quid. and chair's theme is 'cars'. the cartoon. no wonder why i'm always pressed for time. that's about 6 hours a day and not counting the hours for news and weather forecast. yes weather forecast, like old people. 

which brings us to the fucking cold weather. it's bloody cold. had to invest in a 10quid heather. worthwhile. i have a feeling that this year's winter will be harsh. 

by the way, i am so sick and tired of chicken and egg like questions. arrggghhhh. 

economic growth and fluctuation?

malaria and negative growth?

etc etc. 

 

uncharted territory

these days i find that a lot of us, i just assumed though, are wandering off course the path we chose and into unknown places. how many of us really reached the destination that we've set 10 years ago? i know i'm not there and not too mention way far away from it. with the recession, which was what we all needed, blown far off course. can't help but just to roll my eyes. 

i am now seriously considering career in a field that i never once thought i would want go into. again lesson in life that i always tell people: - 

1. you don't often get what you want in life. correct that and make it you often don't....
2. beggars can't be choosers. 
3. 做个有钱人狗好过做个流浪狗。be a rich man's dog is better than being a stray dog. after all 打狗都要看主人。 you would have to see who's dog you're bashing. 
4. Theory of the second best.

but who am i kidding?  i'm not fit enough to be in that field. i can't even spell properly for that matter. just look at my url. yes, have a good laugh. 

"The greatest happiness is to vanquish your enemies, to chase them before you, to rob them of their wealth, to see those dear to them bathed in tears, to clasp to your bosom their wives and daughters"     - Genghis Khan

changes... for better or worse... i have no idea. suppose i could test the water for a year or two, and hope that they would graduate faster. people that i regard as my 主人. you would probably question me on where have my dignity gone?  my answer to you would be, dignity has no value in societies these days. societies also no longer value heroism, righteousness, and fair game. hate to say it but people who still value them usually die fast. and yes, it's brutal world and men are feral animals. gifted with brains able to be much more cunning than the fox, much more ferocious than any big cats, much more stronger than an elephant, and must more toxic than a taipan. eventually, it will doom us all. 

mark my words. 

my world

in my world : - 

• cereals are for midnight snack. plus milk and whipped cream.
  
• alarm clock alone cannot unlock me from my sleep. a combination of one alarm clock and three mobile phones' alarm.
  
• hair dryer function as well as a heater. sometimes more efficient.
• you have to speak loudly because i am a little deaf. 
• procrastination plays a big part of my life. 
• computer is on almost 24/7. 
• mobile phones are dumb.
• cartoons enlighten me and the characters are my mentors.
• countless times i lost my umbrella and can never find my lighter. 
• quite a few days in a year, i do not see daylight at all. waking up at 5 and sleeping at 8. pm and am respectively. 
• it is a horror to take the public transport at peak times. largely due to my height. especially awful during summer. 
• songs from the 90s are enjoyable. some older ones are good as well. cannot really get the songs from the last 5 years. guess i'm done being cool.
• i think i'm cool. at least i thought so. but not now.
• peer pressure meant nothing to me.
• joy could be harvested from lava lamps. i can just sit and share at it for hours. by the way, my dream is to own a lava lamp.
• supper is the most important meal of the day.
• requires daily doses of 2 vitamin Cs. 
• my world is as big as a shell. as a result of me being an antisocial hermit crab.
• my laziness will doom me one day.
• i declare my own holidays. 
• a cockroach's life is as worthy as a man's.
• other people tend to find my moral qualities unacceptable. 

result of the poll

i must say the turnout for the poll was appalling. the apathy is disgusting. but i do like to thank those that who did the poll.
my purpose of the poll is to survey the nature of man.
from the result, we can see a whopping 60% of the sample population are selfish. it's natural, it's just human to be selfish. another 30% are somewhat dastards who will watch a helpless old person die. and for the rest of their life, they would probably have to live in regrets. they have some compassion but they love themselves more. and the rest 10% are compassionate people who surprises me. you never know when they are going to do something stupid. i guess it's true that without suffering there will not be compassion. and 0% of the population are complete idiots. i don't think that is true. my model must be flawed some how. one flaw was not having a big enough sample.

*OMG, the guy who just walked pass me has terrible terrible bad odour.

it's 2pm now, three more hours to my next class. it is tempting to go home now. by going home it means i'll be skipping class. what should i do?

workload

heavy workload coming up. i mean now. but here i am. procrastinating as usual. three essays and one exam. how am i going to manage i wonder. it really baffled me how some, a lot, of people manage find time for second lives, such as second life or world of warcraft. i feel like i just cannot get enough time of doing nothing. i really do a lot of nothing. and it feels good. 

anyway, as each day comes by, more and more depressing news come by. i have no idea on how to digest all this depressing news. sigh. 

and i'm contemplating on whether to go back for christmas break. should i? or should i not?

bullied by the fire alarm

my title is not a metaphor.

our fire alarm was burning itself therefore setting off the awful loud alarm. there were sparks seen at the box with contained the live, earth, and neutral wire. it was not the simple battery operated alarm. 

so...

we had to call an electrician at 12am. and they charge 90quid an hour. there wasn't much of a choice. prior to that, we tried dismantling it just to find out that it was wired to a live wire. we plugged off the speaker, the magnet thing with black sugar paper, i pulled out one battery, which was attached, and the plastic caps were destroyed with a hammer. which brought us to calling an electrician. we were not going to take the risk of have the irony of our fire alarm burning down the house. 

so the man came. all he did was unscrewed the alarm off. that's about it. poof 90 quid. 

it would another 30quid to replace the alarm plus 80quid installation. fuck!

dear people

dear people,

please learn some basic bahasa kedah. i am getting sick and tired at people who cannot understand what i am saying. okay? it is not difficult and not as bad as kelate.

Lesson 1

we just change the pronunciations. the 's' and 'r' usually. 's' to 'ih' and 'r' to 'q'. 

example:-

celus(fit in) is pronounce as celuih

*can't think of any word else. writers block

surat khabar(newspaper) is pronounce as surat khabaq

alor star is pronounce as aloq staq

telur(egg) is pronounce as teloq 

bulur(starve) is pronounce as buloq

pagar(gate) is pronounce as pagaq

Lesson 2

tauk is buang

teriak is menangis

kecek means pujuk people for money

satgi is sekejap lagi

ceraboq is untidy

cemerkap is clumsy

etc.

Lesson 3

when i use 'hang', i'm being friend, not rude. 

okay. habih dah.

i'm off to watch my cartoon.

好人

在这个世界，做好人是没用的。最后来还好人得的是什么？得来的都是伤心自己。

做个坏人也不错。如果有什么报应都是值得。你不骗人不代表别人不会骗你。你对人好不代表别人会对你好。人的本能就是自私。这是没法子改变的事情。

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

just got back from billingsgate fish market. as the name suggests, they sell seafood. and she doesn't sell seashells by the seashore. just a lil tongue twister. hah. busy market and what surprised me was at 5am, there were so many people. i gather that these people are serious about their seafood. around the hall people with huge trolley will go, "mind your feet, please". 

we got some crabs, bamboo mussels(i think that's the name), a whole salmon, and half a monk fish. by the way, this is what a monk fish look like. do not be fooled by the face as it's flesh is absolutely marvelous. it's amazing because the flesh actually has texture and will not just break up. a bit like chicken but with fish taste without the fishy smell. add the bone to tomyam soup, then your soup will be gorgeous. 

the crabs weigh to approximately 2.5kg, bamboo mussels 1.3kg, salmon 2.2kg, and monk fish 1.5 kg. 

there were too much fishes that we could not buy. first was because i'm broke and secondly our fridge was kinda full. i deem the fishes quite cheap. they have the red grouper fish at 6.50quid per kg, and i remembered in m'sia they were selling it at about RM73 per kg. perhaps next time. next time my tailed friends. next time. *rubbing my hands in glee*

星期四

今天一整天打了牌。打到身体都累。十二点多我们去了百货商店买东西。买了一些吃的，一瓶红酒，忘了。写到没东西写了。算了吧。

manchester in a walnut shell

it was a cold sunday morning, AS got up and took his shower. He then knocked on my door to find me still sleeping soundly, just like a pig. we were racing against time because as usually we're always late. and the traffic in london is just awful. YUCK! oh and we learned that, i'm a lil better than the satnav. and definitely better than a satnav when i'm equipped with a map. anyway,

we then made our way to bayswater for some duck and tapau some food to bring up to manchester. we went to harrow to collect EW up after that. EW's grandmother is COOL, having pizza and all. usually old people love their porridge and old people food. 

our assembled party of 3, a typical 3 pilot crew, then set out for a three and a half hour journey to manchester. with AS as Captain, me as 1st officer, and EW as 2nd officer. the motorway was kinda slow with accidents and road works. i can't recall what we talked about, just remembered we zipped through the traffic and singing to Teresa Teng's music. yes, we are aging. 

arrived in manchester pretty much on time for dinner. met some of AS and EW's flatmates. it's kinda fun to have friends living in the same building. but, they don't swear as much as me,at all actually, and won't do anything stupid with me. like walking up and down the corridor with a tie as a head band with no apparent reason. boring !!!

"do not do to others what you do not want them to do to you" - i've learn this whilst in manchester. AS made me sleep on the couch because i made him sleep on the couch when he was in london. #$@$^#^&$%#@#$%

on the 1st night. me and as went to the market at 4 or 5 in the morning. we were suppose to get seafood but we ended up with 12 pots of roses. i wonder how will Queen open up to the idea of 6 pots of roses in the house. while in the market, it was a wholesale market, we were contemplating on whether to get a box of giant prawn which cost 40 quid and 3kg of scallop. but as i've suggested earlier, we got neither. we then got back and felt hungry. AS was so poor that both of us had to share ONE egg ONLY and 2 cans of baked beans. just lavish. that was before i found out that he had 2 cans of cod roe in his cupboard. 

we got up at 3-4 in the evening the next day and has microwave food. mac and cheese. i watched 赤壁 (red cliff) while AS went back to bed. absolutely love that movie. love the scene where zhou yu fucked xiao qiao. after the movie, waited for the traffic to clear up then we rushed to wingyip just 20 minuted before it closes to get prawn and salted duck egg. we forced EW to give us 4 eggs as levy to us. for dinner me and AS had prawns, 5 quid worth of prawns translate to about 1KG of prawns. steamed chicken eggs with salted duck egg. the 3rd ingredient missing in the egg was century egg. they were out of stock. 

i waited eagerly for EW to join us but it never happened. it just never happened. we then went to a casino to gamble our disappointment away. the blow was too great for us to bear and we just could not stay in the house. after the casino we went to the market again just to find it not open. we returned home to watch a movie. which was another huge disappointment again. utter garbage. we were at the brink of crying ourselves to sleep that morning. 

it was not until evening we got up. AS cooked some chicken he had in the freezer and fried 2 duck eggs. it was good.  took a shower then EW came by. we watched CNN on the US election. it was a concrete evidence that a huge chunk of US population was disgustingly obese. then when EW got bored, we switched to some adult channels. both of them thought it was too mild for their taste. we ended up watching a documentary on the 6 wives of King Henry. i forgot which henry. i think it's the 7th. probably i'm wrong. 3 of his wives' name was Katherine. i suppose parents those days weren't very gifted. 

AS then decided he don't like me no more and sent me back to london that instance. we took approximately 3 hours to reach my house. after a packet of ramen then he left for manchester. he didn't reach manchester until 5.30 in the morning. he's probably asleep still right now. 

ps - i didn't know that picture of a harlot can be so... hmm... can't find a word.... not pretty, not cute, not beautiful.. but so.. so enticing. yup, that's about right.

hitchhiking

i hitchhiked to manchester. cool....

we had 3 roasts(duck,chicken,pork) for dinner with a few of as and rainbowl's friends.

after they left, we drank 'da hong pao' [ 大红袍 ] and ice wine. suppose to be good.

ice wine - spells like apple juice and taste like honey (terrible). 

an oaf

being the clumsy oaf that i am, today, in a long long time, my phone rang in class, which was not put into silent mode. that was awkward. dropped my pen a few times. took the tube to the wrong direction. and finally spilt water on my duvet. what a brilliant day. ps- my day has not ended yet. 

my house mate suggest that we have a spring clean on the house. much needed i suppose. just clean up my room two days ago. dust here collect up pretty fast. changed my sheets, lovely. which reminds me the washed ones are still in the machine. i hate doing laundry. plus i do not know how to iron. like the shirt just won't iron out nicely. 

prayed my room with Romance. i just love that smell. like LOVE love. 

Juliet just gave me one of the highest compliment. she said i am honest at all the times. great girl.  

reading weeks starting. i mean half term break. don't really like to call it reading week as the name suggest us to read. i wonder what i will do?

nak gi kencing ah...

hikayat merong mahawangsa

how many kedahan actually read this piece? 

hah!  shame on you...

this piece is about the history of Kadaram, which is known as Kedah today, from the opening of the country, yes it was a country, and the line of the founder's descendent. the story follows from Raja Merong Mahawangsa, founder of Kadaram, through to Sultan Ahmad Tajuddin Halim Shah(the 21st Sultan of Kedah).

it is obvious that the myths and legends in this piece is dominant, but nevertheless the historical writing is equally valid. these myths and legends can be analysed and interpreted for a better understanding. i suppose why it embraces myths and legends is for this piece to be interesting as not until recent times, it is neither art nor science, but mere entertainment. these m&l gives us a good picture of the morality and mindset of the past. 

another thing to be note in about this piece is the lack of time setting and frame. it had been totally neglected so it is up to us to match the story line to the time line. 

there are a few versions of this piece. 3 edition that i have hold of is by R. J. Wilkinson [there is one copy in Muzium Negeri Kedah], A. J. Sturrock, and Sir W. Maxwell. these versions varied in their emphasis on different issues as such examples:-

1. the messenger, that brought the news of Raja Rum is to be in-laws with Emperor of China, is burung kakak tua (parrot) in Maxwell while in other versions, it is burung rajawali (eagle).
2. the love story between Raja Seri Inderawangsa and the giant princess. more is said about this love story in Maxwell than other versions. [Raja Ong Maha Perita Deria, aka, Raja Bersiung, is an evil spawn of Raja Seri Inderawangsa and the giant princess]. 

the influences on this pieces range from the local animistic believe at that time and islam religion. the tale of Raja Buluh Betung came from the local myth. Raja Bersiung has undeniable similarity with the indian tale of Maha Satasoma-Jataka (both had a taste for the flesh and blood of men). sheikh Abdullah's expedition is probably a work of a javanese writer. Seri Rama and Hanuman most probably come from the Siamese wayang kulit, also from the Hikayat Seri Rama itself. the appearances of Nabi Allah Sulaiman from the obvious influence of islam. 

according to this piece, Raja Merong Mahapudisat's 4 offspring then rule 4 different countries or states. the youngest prince remain in kedah to rule kedah, the eldest to up north to rule Siam, 2nd prince south to find Perak, and princess to the east to establish Patani. of course is it much disputed whether this is really any truth to it. perhaps a DNA test?    by the way, the official document of Kedah's Royal linage starts from Sultan Mudzaffar Shah 1 only (the 1st Sultan to convert to Islam). 

this disgust me. they (malaysia generally) try so very hard to discard and bury anything that is non islam today. they are wasting all the so ever colourful history and priceless antiques. a time and a place where animism, hinduism and islam blends out perfectly like a good cuppa blend. the lembah bujang is a very important archeology site which should be studied. but it is left to sit alone beside a rummage fishing village in merbok. i am so disgusted right now. i shall stop.

anyway, nice book, good for light reading.

speaking of...

it snowed in london, but not in my place. all i got was rain. yes, i'm not a big fan of the cold yet i would like to have something in return to compensate my dreaded nemesis. and yes, the cold is a source of my anguish. therefore, the mystery of my absences from school is revealed. 

在家

my adopted budding bicolour rose..

shoes... that's just half of it...

we only have 3 person living in the house.

our own red mini cab

another adopted budding rose

lounge.. this is the after photo

my mate's cabbage. it has just sprouted.

my baby dwarf rose.

lounge... before photo

lounge... before photo 2. 

我们有很多东西。多的很恐怖。幸好现在整洁好了。

我的郁金香还没生长，要给他多一点儿时间。明年三月，春天，应该会开花儿了。花园有几个要死不要死的玫瑰树。我救了他们。现在都要开花儿了。还是不错，能说漂亮。

我已经整个星期没去学院应为生病。真没办法。不是不要去，是去不了。算了吧。

周末打牌了一天，一天去买点儿吃的东西。现在跟雨碗淡天。

DECLARATION OF CHANGE OF FAITH

after contemplating for year. i've decided.
i am now a LeVayan Satanist. i shall make these guides as my pillar to build my life.

"there is no god but myself, knowing this, who dares worship the false gods of the quran and bible?" - Satan from the Qu'ret Al-Yezid, Revelation of Melek Ta'us.

The Nine Satanic Statements

1. Satan represents indulgence instead of abstinence.
2. Satan represents vital existence instead of spiritual pipe dreams.
3. Satan represents undefiled wisdom instead of hypocritical self-deceit.
4. Satan represents kindess to those who deserve it, instead of love wasted on ingrates
5. Satan representsvengeance instead of turning the other cheek.
6. Satan represents responsibility to the responsible instead of concern for psychic vampires.
7. Satan represents man as just another animal, sometimes better, more often worse than those that walk on all-fours, who, because of his “divine spiritual and intellectual development,” has become the most vicious animal of all.
8. Satan represents all of the so-called sins, as they all lead to physical, mental, or emotional gratification.
9. Satan has been the best friend the Church has ever had, as He has kept it in business all these years.

The Eleven Satanic Rules of the Earth

1. Do not give opinions or advice unless you are asked.
2. Do not tell your troubles to others unless you are sure they want to hear them.
3. When in another’s lair, show them respect or else do not go there.
4. If a guest in your lair annoys you, treat them cruelly and without mercy.
5. Do not make sexual advances unless you are given the mating signal.
6. Do not take that which does not belong to you, unless it is a burden to the other person and they cry out to be relieved.
7. Acknowledge the power of magic if you have employed it successfully to obtain your desires. If you deny the power of magic after having called upon it with success, you will lose all you have obtained.
8. Do not complain about anything to which you need not subject yourself.
9. Do not harm little children.
10. Do not kill non-human animals unless you are attacked or for your food.
11. When walking in open territory, bother no one. If someone bothers you, ask them to stop. If they do not stop, destroy them.

The Nine Satanic Sins

1. Stupidity -- The top of the list for Satanic Sins. The Cardinal Sin of Satanism. It’s too bad that stupidity isn’t painful. Ignorance is one thing, but our society thrives increasingly on stupidity. It depends on people going along with whatever they are told. The media promotes a cultivated stupidity as a posture that is not only acceptable but laudable. Satanists must learn to see through the tricks and cannot afford to be stupid.
2. Pretentiousness -- Empty posturing can be most irritating and isn’t applying the cardinal rules of Lesser Magic. This is on equal footing with stupidity for what keeps the money in circulation these days. Everyone’s made to feel like a big shot, whether they can come up with the goods or not.
3. Solipsism -- Projecting your reactions, responses, and sensibilities onto someone who is probably far less attuned than you are can be very dangerous for Satanists. It is the mistake of expecting people to give you the same consideration, courtesy and respect that you naturally give them. They won’t. Instead, Satanists must strive to apply the dictum of “Do unto others as they do unto you.” It’s work for most of us, and requires constant vigilance, lest you slip into a comfortable illusion of everyone being like you. As it has been said, certain utopias would be ideal in a nation of philosophers, but unfortunately we are far from that point.
4. Self-Deceit -- It’s in the “Nine Satanic Statements”, but deserves to be repeated here. It is another cardinal sin. We must not pay homage to any of the sacred vows presented to us, including the roles we are expected to play ourselves. The only time self-deceit should be entered into is when it’s fun, and with awareness. But then, it’s not self-deceit!
5. Herd Conformity -- That’s obvious from a Satanic stance. It’s all right to conform to a person’s wishes, if it ultimately benefits you. But only fools follow along with the herd, letting an impersonal entity dictate to you. The key is to choose a master wisely, instead of being enslaved by the whims of the many.
6. Lack of Perspective -- Again, this one can lead to a lot of pain for a Satanist. You must never lose sight of who and what you are, and what a threat you can be, by your very existence. We are making history right now, every day. Always keep the wider historical and social picture in mind. That is an important key to both Lesser and Greater Magic. See the patterns and fit things together as you want the pieces to fall into place. Do not be swayed by herd constraints: Know that you are working on another level entirely from the rest of the world.
7. Forgetfulness of Past Orthodoxies -- Be aware that this is one of the keys to brainwashing people into accepting something new and different, when in reality it’s something that was once widely accepted but is now presented in a new package. We are expected to rave about the genius of the creator and forget the original. This makes for a disposable society.
8. Counterproductive Pride -- That first word is important. Pride is great up to the point you begin to throw out the baby with the bathwater. The rule of Satanism is: If it works for you, great. When it stops working for you, when you’ve painted yourself into a corner and the only way out is to say, I’m sorry, I made a mistake, I wish we could compromise somehow, then do it.
9. Lack of Aesthetic -- This is the physical application of the Balance Factor. Aesthetics is important in Lesser Magic and should be cultivated. It is obvious that no one can collect any money off classical standards of beauty and form most of the time, so they are discouraged in a consumer society; but an eye for beauty, for balance, is an essential Satanic tool and must be applied for greatest magical effectiveness. It’s not what’s supposed to be pleasing: It’s what is. Aesthetics is a personal thing, reflective of one’s own nature, but there are universally pleasing and harmonious configurations that should not be denied.

demise of me cooking skill

my cooking skill is one that i've always pride myself with. but not anymore. me and me wok fell apart, me pan wanted a divorce, me spatula ran away with me ladle.
dinner by me tonight tasted funny. chicken tasted funny, so did the mushrooms. sigh...
i shall never cook again, to spare the world from my atrocious cookings.

mystery of the disappearing lighters
we had tonnes of lighters. perhaps not tonnes but definately more than 20 in the house. but now we could not even find one. we were reduced to using matches. what the fuck...
i don't get it, where could have the lighters went? i believe that they don't have any limbs or whatsoever parts that make them mobile. "$W$%"@£"$%!


and my cough still refuse to go away. it's been what?.... 5 days. damn you cough. i've been coughing so much that i feel like my bronchi are being ripped apart.
painful... just painful...
i want my mummy!

a good cuppa

william fortnum and hugh mason, you both should be a beutiful couple because some of the finest tea is still in your name.

one of my all time favour is the Smokey Earl Grey. from f&m of course. it puts all the other earl grey teas to shame. instead of the classic earl grey, lapsang souchong is added to the SEG for the distinctive smoky taste, living up to the smokey name. the bergamot oil in this is not as very strong which gives it a very nice blend. i find those twinnings earl grey has too much of bergamot oil. yuck

next is the Royal Blend. a lovely cup for anytime of day. very smooth blend of more assam with less ceylon. though assam is usually found in most breakfast tea, this blend makes it suitable to go at any time. the ceylon gives it an aromatic character. best with milk or coffemate. don't let the name fool you. it's not only for coffee.

for more ceylon, go for the Regents Blend. i love to dip my digestive biscuit into this one. the digestive will absorb the refreshing ceylon tea taste ( kinda leafy taste ), making them complementary for each other. muah!

last but not least, the Nuwara Eliya Ceylon tea. is it just gorgeous. produced at the highest area in sri langka for the finest teas. a lil pricey though, £25 for 100g. but it is so worth the price. just finished it just before the summer. will try to get it again.

the worst tasting medicine

see the photo and remember the label. Because this is definitely the worst tasting medicine i've ever had. it is 10 times worse than any other chinese medicine i've ever had. YUCK!

lemsip is sweet, bitter, and sour tasted. it also has this funny mentholated taste/smell. my guess that it's a concoction of crushed paracetamol, expired fizzy lemonade, and three dash of 'minyak angin cap kapak'.  argh.. one more gulp to go.............................. done.

by the way, i'm having a terrible sore throat, really painful chesty cough, and a lil feverish. doubt that i'll be going to lecture tomorrow. 

earlier today before i felt worse, me and my house mates went shopping for gardening stuffs. got some soil, pots, seeds, bulbs, and etcs. 

i got some tulips. was looking high and low for roses but just never found them. sigh. so i'll just stick with tulips then. grow my pretties, GROW !!! my mates are planting some vegetable and pumpkin. i hope those vegetables will never grow or have stunted growth.. muahahaha. 

  

好地方给我练中文

哈哈哈！

可以到这儿来练我中文。今天在上课很丢脸，我同学比我好。他们是ang mo。

没法子，自己笨。

今晚一成早就去睡觉。真的不象他平常时候。他说明天有上午课，所以要早睡。雨碗要念书，她好一点儿，念书前跟我谈天儿。她们的名字我乱写应为我不会写。哈哈哈。她们都应该懂吧。

已经十二点三刻了，我得去睡觉。不然明天早上七点起不了床。

the saga of my journey back home

so after finishing two two hours lecture, i got on the bus to get to the tube station. fancy that i bumped into jhuen. well, i didn't exactly bumped into her as she didn't know we were on the same bus. she was holding some polystyrene box with food, i presumed, cause i was fucking hungry. had only a packet of instant tomyam bihun for the whole day. i must say that i think the instant tomyam here is much less spicy than the ones we get in m'sia or thailand. probably they have two different lines of production; one export & one local comsumption.

anyway, at the tube station, i hopped on a tube (OBVIOUSLY, otherwise there's no reason to go to the tube station) to become some sardine paste in a tube. you know how we say pack in a sardine can. haha.. right.. no ones laughing. lame joke.
oh yes, this lady in front of me, in her late 20s i think, OMG, her hair, her split ends. the most split ends on a persons head i ever saw in my life. she seriously should get a trim. i suppose it's quite apparent that she bleached her hair to be blonde. dumb blonde. hahaha.. again.. another lame joke.

had EDCII and chinese lecture today. covering jorgenson model and kinda wrap up renis-fei from last week in EDCII. for chinese, i find that the ang mo are better than me. sigh, had to copy their work.

and they ( i have no idea who) erected two fluorescent orange colour coconut trees with running lights for leaves in front of the school. i wonder what's that for. it really reminded me of alorstar, with the strings of lights all over town. hah

of to watching south park now. ta

succumbing to the pressure of getting a blog

after much consideration, i've finally decided to be more 'in' and give this blog thingy a try.

it's 8.05pm, 15th oct 08.
starving. ran out of fresh food thus have nothing to cook.
i'm wondering what time my housemate would get home so i don't need to get the bus to the supermarket and carry the groceries home. he finished at 5pm and it's 8 now; london traffic - horrendous.

i'm talking to ew through skype right now, telling her, "i finally got a blog". she went on nagging about telling me to get a blog since long ago. bla bla bla

oh yea, i've just finished a trashy book. "takdir". the story is appalling with ridiculous mindsets and blunt storyline. it is so bad that i literally like the book. haha.
by the way, they reshuffled the library shelf and now i can't find my comics in the library.
!"£@£$%@£$%!