at awe

this piece looked like a bunch of rusty old bells. let me tell you, it's more than a bunch of rusty old bells. 

the precision of bianzhong(编钟）is amazing. they are pretty and huge. each bell can produce 2 distinct pitches from striking 2 different location; the primary pitch produced at the centre of the striking area, the secondary pitch near the left and right corner. the secondary pitch is usually  minor or major third higher, giving  a full chromatic range. there are 3 types of bells; first the suspended slantingly leaf-shaped cross sections, concave mouths and shanks on their crowns; second the suspended vertically bells of the same shaped with suspension loops; and a huge vertically suspended  bell with elliptical cross section and flat mouth. each bell has suspension ring and clusters of 9 knobs.

amazing isn't it?

road not taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. 

~robert frost 

familiar with this piece? well, you should.

anyway, at this moment of my life, i feel like i'm standing right in stanza one. surrounded by a number of options for a decision that i have to make. not a very big choices but nevertheless i have to choose. these roads do not just bent in the undergrowth but even i cannot see whether they bends, or remain straight, or come up to a stream, or even a dead end. 

sigh...

which reminds me... if you look at stanza 2 and 4... it's quite irony.. in stanza 2, it's the writer said he took a road, which was just as fair. plus, he mentioned both roads were worn to the same extend. reaching stanza 4, he said he had took the road less traveled. how could he had taken the road that was less traveled when they were equally worn in the first place? 

does his 'telling with a sigh' tells us that he picked the wrong road? so does it mean that individualism is a bad thing? anyhow, this piece is contradicting itself and just describe a scenario. it offers no insight. 

should just bin it then...

wish i could just bin my problems as well 

wasting my life away

i'll start at where i want...

001. Real name → 
002. Nickname(s)→ 
003. Zodiac sign → 
004. Male or female → 
005. Elementary → 
006. Middle School → 
007. High School → 
008. Hair color → 
009. Long or short → 
010. Loud or Quiet → 
011. Sweats or Jeans → shorts and boxers
012. Phone or Camera → i'm too poor to own a camera
013. Health freak → i laugh at the face of health.. you'll love my secret recipe char tang hun with 3 types of oil amongst it's ingredient 
014. Drink or Smoke? → do i really have to choose?
015. Do you have a crush on someone? → tonnes.. 花心
016. Eat or Drink → i stuff myself like a pig and i drink like a camel 
017. Piercings → boring onces 
018. Tattoos → thinking about it
019. Been in an airplane→ unfortunately... hate flying..
020. Been in a relationship → at this age who hasn't?
021. Been in a car accident → minor ones... 
022. Been in a fist fight → a little, yes... 

FIRSTS:

023. First piercing → very young actually
024. First best friend → none in particular
025. First award → hmm... anyone willingly remind me of any?
026. First crush → i believe it shan't be reveal here...
027. First relationship → shan't reveal as well... 
028. First big vacation → i have no memory of it...

LASTS:

029. Last person you talked to → my flatmates... 
030. Last person you texted → let me think... my phone is dumb and i don't really have much friends... 300 free text to waste..
031. Last person you watched a movie with → aikseng
032. Last food you ate → cereal... kind of a staple food...
033. Last movie you watched → you really want to know? okay, it's 金瓶梅。yes, i watch sam kap pien.. 三级片。
034. Last song you listened to → way back into love.. 
035. Last thing you bought → prawns... 
036. Last person you hugged → my flatmate... she was crying... homesick.. 

FAVES:
037. Food → anything unhealthy.. oily and fatty food... beef... OMG, i love beef.. plus high cholesterol food... squid, prawn head, shell fishes.. koay teow kerang.. kari pui... shall stop here as i live to eat...
038. Drinks → coffee and tea but they're specific.. starbucks coffees are overrated.. they're not really that good... in fact i think they're quite rubbish... tea, fortnum and mason, tiada tandingan..
039. Clothing → i have to say... old clothes are the best.. and shorts.. i love running around with shorts...
040. Flower → roses... traditional, yes.. 
041. Book → i read funny books... terry pratchett is good.. i'm waiting to get my hands on the fairy book collection... very expensive though...
042. Colors → rainbow colours...
043. Movies → hanibal series..
044. Subjects → i'm awful at everything...

IN 2008... I

045. [x] kissed someone
046. [ ] celebrated Halloween
047. [ ] had your heart broken
048. [x] went over the minutes on your cell phone
049. [x] questioned someone's sexual orientation ~ more of a confirmation question
050. [ ] came out of the closet
051. [ ] gotten pregnant
052. [ ] had an abortion
053. [ ]done something you've regretted
054. [ ] broke a promise
055. [ ] hid a secret
056. [ ] pretended to be happy
057. [ ] met someone who changed your life
058. [x] pretended to be sick
059. [x] left the country
060. [ ] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
061. [ ] cried over the silliest thing
062. [ ] ran a mile
063. [x] went to the beach with your best friend(s) ~ love them
064. [ ] got into an argument with your friends
065. [ ] hated someone
066. [ ] lived on the edge

CURRENTLY:

067. Eating → cereal... i told you it was staple...
068. Drinking → water... i told you i drink like a camel
069. I'm about to → fart... ahh... done...
070. Plans for today → no idea...
071. Waiting for → opportunities...

YOUR FUTURE:

072. Want kids? → what for? the world is overpopulated as it is...
073. Want to get married? → doubt so
074. Careers in mind → blank... but i'm looking forward to retirement.. 

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?

075. Lips or eyes → i need a whole face to tell... there is no point of having a pair of dreamy eyes with a face like a... like a... what is the ugliest thing in the world?
076. Shorter or taller? → hmm... relative to my own height... it's much of a dilemma. 
077. Romantic or spontaneous → don't really care for this..
078. Nice stomach or nice arms → i want a whole full set.. 
079. Sensitive or loud → what loud are we talking about here?
080. Hook-up or relationship → hahahaha.... i have issues with both...
081. Trouble-maker or hesitant -> both are not good qualities, no?

HAVE YOU EVER:

082. Lost glasses/contacts → nope...
083. Ran away from home → don't need to... and how do i live without the support from home? yes, i still live under my parents' armpits. 
084. Hold a gun/knife for self defense → no... but i'm trained to use a gun as well as knifes..
085. Killed somebody → literally or figuratively? 
086. Broken someone's heart → i'm not obligated to answer this question..
087. Lost a friend → yes.. a couple of them pass away..
088. Cried when someone died → nope... they weren't really that close.. *i sounded a lil cold huh?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself → used to... diminishing by the minute... a person can only take so much disappointments... 
090. Miracles → c'mon... we don't live in fairy tales.. 
091. Love at first sight → again, fairy tales are just stories..
092. Heaven → no...
093. Santa Claus → c'mon... why not believe in tooth fairy then...
094. Sex on the first date - why not?
095. Kiss on the first date → what a stupid question.. 

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

096. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → unfortunately yes..
097. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → hah... i wish... but nothing can be further from the truth... don't know how am i suppose to get out of this mess alive. 
098. Do you believe in God → yes.. because i am GOD...
099. Have you ever wished you can become someone else? - not really.. not that i love being myself too much... just i haven't met anybody that i want to be...
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.- to be honest... i don't have 10 friends for me to tag..

a lil something

人生愁恨何能免

销魂独我情何限

故国梦重归

觉来双泪垂

高楼谁与上

长记秋晴望

往事已成空

还如一梦中

～李煜

谁懂本人在想何事？

day of joys and some not so joyful events

today i got my davidoff coffee and beef jerky kinda thingy. i am filled with joy. 

yes.... foods and beverages make me happy... good foods and beverages to be precise. 

let's not talk about the not-so-joyful events. 

OH MY GOD!!! these beef jerky... chewing on it till my saliva is drooling.... this is so GOOD!!! who says china has nothing good? this is just gorgeous.. marvelous.. just heaven..  mark my words, i'll try to produce this a halal version in future to show more people the joy. hell, i'll even produce a kosher version.... spread the joy... 

ahh~ i'm in heaven... 

烦脑

又来了。对了一个我不应该有意思的人有意思。为什么整天都是这样？我到底做了什么错？难得我就这样过一生？我们俩人的性格太不同，如何能一起活？

我怎么问这么多问题哪？ 风了我。

pregnant woman

my previous encounters with pregnant women were very different with the one i just had. the previous pregnant women (those heavily pregnant- more than 8 months and only a week away from the due date) cannot drive around, walk around shopping mall, run up the stairs, and definitely cannot squat up and down. this recent one i met can do them all. leaving us to worry about her rather than her worrying about it herself. 

walking around with her around the shopping mall was quite stressful, worrying that some huge dude might bump into her and going up and down the escalator. there was also a threat that she might go into labour at that time. anyway, nothing happen and we were glad. 

i came across a 2 year old wearing glasses kid. hahaha. cute. but very snobbish. hmp.. 

snake pass was beautiful. shall i say breath taking? the snow was still there and the valley is simply gorgeous. is was prettier than pen-y-pass. though that was in spring. i love both. it was such a shame that we didn't have a camera with us. moreover it was sunny and not foggy. 

oh well, no use crying over spilt milk.   

dog

i am like a dog trapped in a house. master sleeping like a pig and the dog dying of hunger.

ning gave me a game to play !!! whee

Bold the statements that are true to you. Italicize the statements that you wish are true. Leave the Fibs alone. Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch TV these days. 
I own lots of books. - surprised huh? though haven't got the time to finish them. ps-they're expensive.

I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I've tried marijuana.
I love playing video games.
I have been in a threesome.- will give that a thought
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. 
I curse sometimes.- somewhat an understatement. 
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I use to carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm totally smart. Ya, so I don have to spend so much time studying for this sem
I've broken someone's bones.- just caused someone's ankle to sprain 
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. 
I need money right now. 
I love sushi.
I talk really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.- pessimist drown in a half empty pool while optimist drone in a half filled pool. see a difference?
I have a lot of mood swings. 
I have a hidden talent.- hehehe
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. 
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I enjoy talking on the phone. - it's a necessity, and i don't enjoy them
I have pecked someone of the same sex.- i kissed ning before !!! i think i did
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I enjoy window shopping.
I love to shop.
I would rather shop then eat. Eating trumps shopping! < agree with ning
I don't hate anyone. 
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. 
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I have changed a diaper before.
I want to have children in the future.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn. - knowledge only meant complicity with guilt, ignorance has a certain dignity. 
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I have tried alcohol before.
I am shy around the opposite sex.

I own the "South Park" movie.- i have the whole collection
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys. 
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.-i rarely tie them
I can work on a car.
I love my job. 
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I have jumped off a bridge.- thrown into the sea count?
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.- in creating  eerie noisy and annoying people
I plan on achieving a dream/goal.
I hate office jobs.
I worked at McDonald's.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses.-who doesn't?
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.- don't know why i did it, but i just do them
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I usually like covers than originals.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.- never attempt any
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I talk in my sleep.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time. 
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring. 

i shall not stab... i don't have people that i know reading my blog and possess a blog. sad life.. tsk tsk

failure

i returned a failure. sigh.

brilliant plan

i have a brilliant plan in mind. shall execute it tomorrow. unless some unforeseen circumstances surface, my will will be done. 

muahahahahahahaha <-- really evil laugh