happy day

i am so excited. guess what.....

i got my hand on an antique copy of uncle tom's cabin and dombey and son. there's a copy of david copperfield as well but i don't much money to spare. sigh.....

also i got a pair of glasses.

isn't it cool? if i deduce it correctly, this is made in circa 1920s, or earlier. although this type of frames come into production in the late 1890s, but those were mostly oval instead of round. anyway, this frame is in a very good condition. not very good but still fit to be worn. but will have to change the lenses. the previous owner's left eye's lens is really thick. though the right eye is fine. i wonder who the previous owner is? is he or she dead yet? 

can't wait to change the lenses and make a few touching up. 

burgers

one of my flat mates just left. so the two of us are left with no cook. for dinner tonight, we had 6 burgers from burger king. quite sad, no? 

anyway, i've just watched bolt. the cartoon is about a delirious dog bolt, a pitiful cat mittens, and a obese hamster rhino. it wasn't bad. though i find somewhat similar to the truman show. hmm... after thinking through, i find it a bit boring and too predictable. no, don't like predictable shows. they bore me. 

ok i'm bored. 

44 hours benchmark

over chinese new year... i've reached another benchmark. it started on saturday, got up in the morning at about 8am. i can't remember what i did the whole day, probably just lazing around house. we had steamboat at night and play mahjong till the next day. non-stop whole night. we had two pots, 1st the clear soup kind and other, the spicy one. had lamb, beef, chicken, fish, and some balls. just over this weekend, i've learned another new type of mahjong. so in total i know how to play 3 types of mahjong. hongkong, wuhan, and changsa. at about 11.45am on sunday, i got out to meet up with chuin and jhuen for lunch. 

instead we had lunch, early tea, and late tea. we had jap, relatively big portions, then frozen yogurts, and some yau char guay with  cy's tau fu fah. chuin had a nabe something noodles, jhuen had some salmon, while i had beef. we ordered uni on the side and i had green tea ice cream. nice lunch. took a stroll to make our way down to piccadilly circus. there's a new shop, the national geographic shop. interesting things but really over priced. had tea and yogurt and decided to have chinese yau char guai. so we switch shop. and then with the 2p machines. they are some what persons that we call professionals, and if you only see what the 2p machines reduce them to. hahahahaha. we lost approximately 3-4 quid to the 2p machines. we disperse at about 6 or 6.30pm. they left for home and i made my way to caledonian road tube station. my mates were 45 minutes late so i had to stand in the cold for 50 minutes. stand, there were no seating and no shops nearby. oh yea, ning was so sweet, sending us texts. with jhuen last on the list and me on top of the list. oh yea, does anybody know who does 0164911517 belong to? i lost all numbers when i broke my phone. 

after picking me up at about 8pm, we head of to the karaoke place. didn't leave until 3am. throughout it, i was tired but kept on going. with some small amount of alcohol, it got really demanding. but i made it. we continued the steamboat and played mahjong again when we reached home. i didn't get to bed at least until 5.15am. that was the end of the 44 hours streak. 

another surprise was i didn't sleep for 12 hours. i got up at about 3pm monday. went out for late lunch and we to a friend's house to play mahjong again. we left about 11.30pm. slept at about 12.30am. and now here we are.

i've been playing a lot of mahjong lately. 

hard disk full

i've just deleted more than 15 tvb drama series and a few movie files. sigh~ don't have enough storage space to keep them all. just keeping a handful that i like. 500GB external hard disk is definitely not enough. but it's too expensive to get another one. 

aikseng just found downloads for me.. yay !!!!

he autonomously find madagascar2 for me. damn i'm touched. haha. in addition to that, i've got 3 seasons of yes minister, and the forbidden legend; sex and chopsticks. 

off to watch madagascar2...

normal life

trying to live a normal life. i sleep at 11 and wake up at 8. after brushing my teeth, i have breakfast with a glass of coffee. go to class when i need to. then sleep at night. but somehow i feel weird. by being so normal i feel so weird. 

sense of belonging

oh my god, this is so embarrassing. 

http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2009/jan/21/rihanna-show-ban

where do i belong? malaysia don't like me. china don't want me. uk is kicking me out. haven't been to neither us nor aus. hate singapore. don't speak french nor german. can't understand what japanese and korean people say. 

where am i suppose to go?

tuesday

i hate tuesday. i think i've mentioned it before but i shall mention it again. two classes on tueday, one two hours class from 11 to 1 and another one one hour class from 5 to 6. this means that i have 4 hours in between with nothing to do. not to mention that i have no friend in school. at times, i will come to the computer room to watch TVBS, CCTV, or ThaiGlobal network. unfortunately i forgot to bring my ipod, hence i don't have a headphone. now i understand how a dumb person feels watching tv.

now i have 3 and a half hours to kill. what shall i do? shall go off at 3.30 to have a late lunch. yes, i eat alone in a restaurant. how pityful. that leaves me with 2 hours still to rot. how i wish to go home. but 2 weeks of absence is enough i suppose. *ps. - my chinese class just now was very very very boring and pointless. plus i dislike the next classes' tutor.

grave mistake

how could i have made such a grace mistake? this may well affect me a whole lot in the near future. why didn't i think it through before? i cannot believe i've done it. what can i do to undo this mistake? who can help me? and who is willing to help me? since when i'm so reckless?
the road not taken? but there is no going back. there is no 'going back' in life. all those 'going back' are just a bunch of self-consoling stances which have no real meaning. for instance, going back to the right path. if you need to 'go back to the right path', it meant that you've taken the wrong path. all that was done in the 'wrong path' was done and there is no force in the world that can reserve those actions. thus, one will just have to bear the burden of regrets throughout life. and when one return to the 'right path', what one do after that is the future. which of course is independent of the past. independent in the sense that the actions taken on the 'right path' will have it's consequences in the next future while the consequences from the past on the 'wrong path' will be inflicted on you still. hence, no matter what one does, there is no going back and nothing is reversible. it's like playing a game of othello, you can momentarily reverse the pieces but the fact is the game had proceed on with more tiles and the circumstances has change as well. there is no going back to the previous state.

天下无敌

人写的字，龙飞凤舞，我写的字，鸡爪蛇曲。

我写的中文字难看极了。还好老师明白我在写什么。写来写去都写不好。练也没用，真气死了。

用电脑写的是最完美。得长的就长，得短的就短。

其实，我很无聊。无赖加无聊，天下无敌。 哈哈哈。

这世界有很多种神。我不明白的是为什么人不拜拜这几个神？好象瘟神，衰神，和睡神。对我看法，我们应该拜这几个多点。拜了他们，他们开心，就不会来烦扰我们了。

算了吧。反正你们都不接受我的看法。

adventure

i need an adventure. 

NOT the ones in my head. had tonnes of that, with no, or negligible amount, adrenaline rush. 

i cannot even remember the last time i had an excitement. whether was it doing mischief, going on a road trip, cheating on a relationship, and etc. well, not that i did do all that...i'm just saying..

bosannya hidup beta. bosan sampai gelaran keduli yg maha mulia lagi bergaya liai pun tak lucu dah. ada siapa siapa hamba yang ada apa rancangan untuk hiburkan hati beta? hamba mana yang berjaya akan beta kurniakan gelaran....  

Y.B. T.D.M.  --------->Yang Badut Tun Datuk Merepek.

habis bosan phone rosak pulak. apa lah nasib ini. dah jatuh atas tahi lagi ditimpa tangga besi. 

any good recommendation on which phone?

 

LIM

recent event prompted me to look up the origin of the surname 林. unfortunately, none of the lim descendant succeeded any throne. what a shame. however, the first Lim was a royalty. he was the son of BiGan, also known as Cai Shen Yeh.

 according to historical records, Bi Gan was the uncle of King Zhou of the Shang Dynasty. He was a faithful and righteous minister. according to Fengshen Yanyi(封神演义), BiGan's heart was dug out by Daji(妲己-狐狸精), King Zhou's most favored concubine, but he didn't die thanks to the panacea offered by Jiang Ziya. later, BiGan went into the midst of the common people to distribute treasure. legend has it that merchants under the blessing of BiGan all did honest business, never cheating anyone. that's why BiGan was widely praised and worshiped. the usual portrait of BiGan is a man dressed like a civil official who wears a minister's gauze cap and embroidered robe, with a ruyi (an S-shaped ornamental object, usu. made of jade, formerly a symbol of good luck) in his hand and gold or silver ingots under his feet.

when Bi Gan's pregnant wife, who bore the surname Chen, heard of her husband's death, she fled into some woods and gave birth to a baby boy, who she named Jian. after the Shang Dynasty was toppled by the Zhou Dynsty, the position of BiGan's wife and son was restored. King Wu conferred the surname Lin (meaning woods or forests) on Bi Gan's son, because he was born in some woods. 

another legendary figure is MaZu(妈祖), or Mat-Su, Chinese Goddess of the Sea, an extraordinary girl who became a goddess. this Chinese goddess originated with the deification of a young woman named Lin Mo Niang(林默娘) who had performed numerous miracles during her short life. a kind-hearted girl with a vast knowledge of Chinese medicine, she was known as a healer, curing the sick while teaching people how to prevent illness and injury. many of the miracles she performed involved quelling storms at sea, so it is hardly surprising that she is known as the protector of all seafaring people. the baby was named Lin Niang (in China the family name, or surname, comes first). at her birth the room was filled with a brilliant light and the fragrance of fresh blossoms. as a newborn, she was strangely silent. alert and healthy, she did not cry at all during the first month of her life, leading her parents to nickname her Mo (which means "silent"). 

thus, the surname lim is quite mythical. although something must have gone wrong throughout the course of time. the lim these days.... .how do i put it?  hmm.. examples, derived from me, ning, and jia....

1. not never, just rarely, punctual. 
2. we pile our laundry. (not true for jia)
3. procrastinators. (not sure about this extend for ning)
4. 睡神(sleeping deity). as oppose to the brave goddess of sea and god of wealth.

一代不如一代 (yi dai bu ru yi dai) & 富不过三代(fu bu guo san dai)

so much for that. habih dah tinggal sisa-sisa lim yg takleh pergi. 

why?

why do i feel affected by something which is not related to me? it has nothing to do with me yet i'm disturbed. jealousy perhaps? well, i know it's jealousy. but why am i jealous?

cleaning up

need to clean up a few things in my life.

firstly would be my laundry. should do then and put them in my wardrobe. that means at least 5 washes to be done. 

secondly is the dishes. dirty dishes pilling up in the sink can prove to be a nuisance. cannot find a clean plate or glass to use even though we have at least 4 sets and remembering i bought a dozen of new glasses when we move in to this property. 

third would be myself. must stop being a good for nothing slugabed. thank to my inability to root otherwise i would have literally been rooted on my bed and grow fungi. 

a friend was proud of me for my ability to swear in over 8 different dialect/languages. i'm really touched. well, he didn't meant in literally, but he asked me to consider widening my language ability. perhaps i should consider? 

expectation

when you expect the unexpected, the unexpected becomes the expected, hence you will expect the expected. 

often it is so not obvious that it is so obvious.

both is true for movies and life. 

"This year's graduates face the toughest battle in a generation for jobs, with tens of thousands facing unemployment, according to new evidence documenting the impact of the economic downturn."   - guardian

sigh

cold

the coldest winter in 14 years for the uk. and i happened to catch it. it is fucking cold and i am freezing my arse off. i'm operating the heater 24 hours non-stop and yet i am cold. just my luck that i'm caught in a house with rubbish insulation. i remember last year i had my window open 24/7 throughout winter. so much milder than this year. weather forecast predict that this cold snap will carry on for a few days. though the weather man is no better than an economist.
why did god created economist? - to make the weather men look good.
one similarity between the two is both cannot be held accountable when their predictions are not true.

shit...need to lau sai...

jaga tepi kain orang buat apa.. biarlah dia terbakar

ini kita namakan anak kera di hutan disusui, anak sendiri mati kebuluran. 

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/1/5/nation/20090105121633&sec=nation

nak pergi tidoq dua belas jam.

karaoke

karaoke on a saturday night... quite fun after i have not been out awhile. after karaoke, it's mahjong until the next sunday morning. i meant afternoon. didn't win much but at least i did not lose money. whilst in the karaoke, met a girl who is an actress. not one famous enough for me to know her but she's quite pretty. but i forgot her name. 

by the way, i went out for karaoke while i was suppose to write my essay. it would have to wait then. 

and i've just gave myself a title, keduli yang maha mulia lagi bergaya maharajah liai. so please you that to address me next time.

kerjasama anda amat dihargai.

arigato.

it pays

it pays to be pretty, cute, and etc. a beautiful person usually have things handed to them more easily hence making life a lot more pleasant. a singer with a prettier face often is more successful than one with a better voice. sigh... we all love pretty faces. in our eye, pretty faces' mistakes are cute, cuit hati <-- i don't remember how to spell. on the other hand, we can find the slightest fault with an ugly face who did nothing wrong. even ning was bias to cute kids in the kindergarten.

fuck, my malay is going down the drain. perhaps for some future posts i should write in malay.

i have 2 days to write up my 3500 words essay. i thought i had more than a week to do it so i am screwed. one would probably wonder what the hell then am i still here writing nonsense. this is what students do generally i suppose. one of my favourite past time when i have work is rearranging my room. though i have not engage this activity in awhile because this year my room is too small. yes, i live in a shoe box. 进房就上床. hahaha. it sounds a lil wrong. jin fang jiu shang chuang literally mean get on the bed as soon as you got into the room. 上床 colloquially mean have sex. get the joke? by the way, tripping over in my room is also a norm.

need to pee. stop writing here.

无赖

这首歌好像在说着我的想当年。要记得是好像，不是整个像。 

“我这种无赖 活大半生还是很失败” 

《无赖》
曲：李峻一

我间中饮醉酒 很喜欢自由 常犯错爱说谎 但总会内疚 

遇过很多的损友 学到贪新厌旧 亦欠过很多女人
怕结婚只会守 三分钟诺言 曾话过要戒烟 但讲了就算
梦与想丢低很远 但对返工厌倦 自小不会打算
* 但是仍 (在地球) 唯独你爱我这废人
出错你都肯去忍 然而谁亦早知不会合衬 偏偏你愿意等
为何还喜欢我 我这种无赖 是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩 口碑有多坏 但你亦永远不见怪
何必跟我 我这种无赖 活大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心 跟我笑着捱 就算坏 我也不忍心
(偷偷作怪) *
没有根的野草 飘忽的命途 谁像你当我宝 什么也做到
旧爱数足一匹布 在这刻写句号 只想跟你终老
Repeat *
还喜欢我 我这种无赖 是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩 口碑有多坏 但你亦永远不见怪
何必跟我 我这种无赖 活大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心 跟我拼命捱 换转别个
也不忍心 偷偷作怪

here's the translation and i said the song kinda reflect a lot

i often get drunk and i like my freedom
i usually make mistakes and lies but i do feel remorse 

i have tons of shit friends(猪朋狗友）and learned to abandon the old when i have a new
i am indebted to a lot of ladies

i'm scared of marriage/responsibilities and never kept my words
i've said i'd quite smoking but they were all words
i've lost my dreams yet i'm fed up with my job
since young i've never knew how to plan

*however you're the only one who still love me though i'm useless(in this world)
you take responsibility for my faults and shortcomings 
though we know we're not meant for each other　

but you're still waiting for a change willingly
　
why do you love a bastard like me
are you stupid or just too saintly 
everybody bashed me and i'm notorious　
But you never seem to care about it
why are you together with a bastard like me
spent half of my life being useless　
but you kept your faith and struggle with me 
i'll never cheat on you no matter how terrible i am　

my life is like the weed without root

only you appreciate me and do everything for me
i had a long string of loves but i'm ending it all
I want to grow old with you

a year full of bullocks

so one year came and went. i was trying to recall what i did through out the past year and i came up with nothing at all. 

it's amazing how i can do nothing at all, 

without gaining anything, 

i wasted the year,

try as i may i could never be useful, 

what i did was all sleep and eat. 

the things that i did, 

was all nonsense and junk, 

smoke and beer was the norm in the days of my year, 

though i'm not dead but there's no difference, i am useless

i say it best

when i did nothing at all

sing it to the tune of nothing at all. ask me if you have any question and if anybody would like to continue the next verse then you're welcomed. though i understand that most of you guys have better things to do. 

sigh. goodbye unproductive year. maybe next year be not as lame as this year.