debt

the US public debt amount to USD 10,663,306,735,490.99 today and still growing every minute. that's more than 10 and a half trillion. the sustainability of this debt is highly questionable. credit is a promise to pay with future earnings. the rate of increase of debt is much faster than the rate of increase in real income. so how could one manage to pay off a rising debt which is faster than real income? the us economy is a time bomb which is set to go off, perhaps not within the next 5 years at least, when the funding of the debt stop. just like the recent liquidity crisis, but at a much larger scale.
so which will be the new power house? china or india or gulf countries or who? china and india has problems of their own and it's difficult to picture them as the power house. gulf countries aren't any better than c&i. so what will the world come to in 10 or 20 years time?

stupid cheap school

stupid school revoke our athens account. fuckers. cheapskate. 

tv junkie

i spend my days watching trash tv while inflating my work pile. watching 'who's line is it anyway' for two hours, '8 simple rules' for 2 hours, 'will and grace' and 'friends' add up to another 2 hours. plus my special chair which has a place to hold the tv remote, or in a beer, is just darling. got it from asda for a good deal two years ago for 6quid. and chair's theme is 'cars'. the cartoon. no wonder why i'm always pressed for time. that's about 6 hours a day and not counting the hours for news and weather forecast. yes weather forecast, like old people. 

which brings us to the fucking cold weather. it's bloody cold. had to invest in a 10quid heather. worthwhile. i have a feeling that this year's winter will be harsh. 

by the way, i am so sick and tired of chicken and egg like questions. arrggghhhh. 

economic growth and fluctuation?

malaria and negative growth?

etc etc. 

 

uncharted territory

these days i find that a lot of us, i just assumed though, are wandering off course the path we chose and into unknown places. how many of us really reached the destination that we've set 10 years ago? i know i'm not there and not too mention way far away from it. with the recession, which was what we all needed, blown far off course. can't help but just to roll my eyes. 

i am now seriously considering career in a field that i never once thought i would want go into. again lesson in life that i always tell people: - 

1. you don't often get what you want in life. correct that and make it you often don't....
2. beggars can't be choosers. 
3. 做个有钱人狗好过做个流浪狗。be a rich man's dog is better than being a stray dog. after all 打狗都要看主人。 you would have to see who's dog you're bashing. 
4. Theory of the second best.

but who am i kidding?  i'm not fit enough to be in that field. i can't even spell properly for that matter. just look at my url. yes, have a good laugh. 

"The greatest happiness is to vanquish your enemies, to chase them before you, to rob them of their wealth, to see those dear to them bathed in tears, to clasp to your bosom their wives and daughters"     - Genghis Khan

changes... for better or worse... i have no idea. suppose i could test the water for a year or two, and hope that they would graduate faster. people that i regard as my 主人. you would probably question me on where have my dignity gone?  my answer to you would be, dignity has no value in societies these days. societies also no longer value heroism, righteousness, and fair game. hate to say it but people who still value them usually die fast. and yes, it's brutal world and men are feral animals. gifted with brains able to be much more cunning than the fox, much more ferocious than any big cats, much more stronger than an elephant, and must more toxic than a taipan. eventually, it will doom us all. 

mark my words. 

my world

in my world : - 

• cereals are for midnight snack. plus milk and whipped cream.
  
• alarm clock alone cannot unlock me from my sleep. a combination of one alarm clock and three mobile phones' alarm.
  
• hair dryer function as well as a heater. sometimes more efficient.
• you have to speak loudly because i am a little deaf. 
• procrastination plays a big part of my life. 
• computer is on almost 24/7. 
• mobile phones are dumb.
• cartoons enlighten me and the characters are my mentors.
• countless times i lost my umbrella and can never find my lighter. 
• quite a few days in a year, i do not see daylight at all. waking up at 5 and sleeping at 8. pm and am respectively. 
• it is a horror to take the public transport at peak times. largely due to my height. especially awful during summer. 
• songs from the 90s are enjoyable. some older ones are good as well. cannot really get the songs from the last 5 years. guess i'm done being cool.
• i think i'm cool. at least i thought so. but not now.
• peer pressure meant nothing to me.
• joy could be harvested from lava lamps. i can just sit and share at it for hours. by the way, my dream is to own a lava lamp.
• supper is the most important meal of the day.
• requires daily doses of 2 vitamin Cs. 
• my world is as big as a shell. as a result of me being an antisocial hermit crab.
• my laziness will doom me one day.
• i declare my own holidays. 
• a cockroach's life is as worthy as a man's.
• other people tend to find my moral qualities unacceptable. 

result of the poll

i must say the turnout for the poll was appalling. the apathy is disgusting. but i do like to thank those that who did the poll.
my purpose of the poll is to survey the nature of man.
from the result, we can see a whopping 60% of the sample population are selfish. it's natural, it's just human to be selfish. another 30% are somewhat dastards who will watch a helpless old person die. and for the rest of their life, they would probably have to live in regrets. they have some compassion but they love themselves more. and the rest 10% are compassionate people who surprises me. you never know when they are going to do something stupid. i guess it's true that without suffering there will not be compassion. and 0% of the population are complete idiots. i don't think that is true. my model must be flawed some how. one flaw was not having a big enough sample.

*OMG, the guy who just walked pass me has terrible terrible bad odour.

it's 2pm now, three more hours to my next class. it is tempting to go home now. by going home it means i'll be skipping class. what should i do?

workload

heavy workload coming up. i mean now. but here i am. procrastinating as usual. three essays and one exam. how am i going to manage i wonder. it really baffled me how some, a lot, of people manage find time for second lives, such as second life or world of warcraft. i feel like i just cannot get enough time of doing nothing. i really do a lot of nothing. and it feels good. 

anyway, as each day comes by, more and more depressing news come by. i have no idea on how to digest all this depressing news. sigh. 

and i'm contemplating on whether to go back for christmas break. should i? or should i not?

bullied by the fire alarm

my title is not a metaphor.

our fire alarm was burning itself therefore setting off the awful loud alarm. there were sparks seen at the box with contained the live, earth, and neutral wire. it was not the simple battery operated alarm. 

so...

we had to call an electrician at 12am. and they charge 90quid an hour. there wasn't much of a choice. prior to that, we tried dismantling it just to find out that it was wired to a live wire. we plugged off the speaker, the magnet thing with black sugar paper, i pulled out one battery, which was attached, and the plastic caps were destroyed with a hammer. which brought us to calling an electrician. we were not going to take the risk of have the irony of our fire alarm burning down the house. 

so the man came. all he did was unscrewed the alarm off. that's about it. poof 90 quid. 

it would another 30quid to replace the alarm plus 80quid installation. fuck!

dear people

dear people,

please learn some basic bahasa kedah. i am getting sick and tired at people who cannot understand what i am saying. okay? it is not difficult and not as bad as kelate.

Lesson 1

we just change the pronunciations. the 's' and 'r' usually. 's' to 'ih' and 'r' to 'q'. 

example:-

celus(fit in) is pronounce as celuih

*can't think of any word else. writers block

surat khabar(newspaper) is pronounce as surat khabaq

alor star is pronounce as aloq staq

telur(egg) is pronounce as teloq 

bulur(starve) is pronounce as buloq

pagar(gate) is pronounce as pagaq

Lesson 2

tauk is buang

teriak is menangis

kecek means pujuk people for money

satgi is sekejap lagi

ceraboq is untidy

cemerkap is clumsy

etc.

Lesson 3

when i use 'hang', i'm being friend, not rude. 

okay. habih dah.

i'm off to watch my cartoon.

好人

在这个世界，做好人是没用的。最后来还好人得的是什么？得来的都是伤心自己。

做个坏人也不错。如果有什么报应都是值得。你不骗人不代表别人不会骗你。你对人好不代表别人会对你好。人的本能就是自私。这是没法子改变的事情。

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just got back from billingsgate fish market. as the name suggests, they sell seafood. and she doesn't sell seashells by the seashore. just a lil tongue twister. hah. busy market and what surprised me was at 5am, there were so many people. i gather that these people are serious about their seafood. around the hall people with huge trolley will go, "mind your feet, please". 

we got some crabs, bamboo mussels(i think that's the name), a whole salmon, and half a monk fish. by the way, this is what a monk fish look like. do not be fooled by the face as it's flesh is absolutely marvelous. it's amazing because the flesh actually has texture and will not just break up. a bit like chicken but with fish taste without the fishy smell. add the bone to tomyam soup, then your soup will be gorgeous. 

the crabs weigh to approximately 2.5kg, bamboo mussels 1.3kg, salmon 2.2kg, and monk fish 1.5 kg. 

there were too much fishes that we could not buy. first was because i'm broke and secondly our fridge was kinda full. i deem the fishes quite cheap. they have the red grouper fish at 6.50quid per kg, and i remembered in m'sia they were selling it at about RM73 per kg. perhaps next time. next time my tailed friends. next time. *rubbing my hands in glee*

星期四

今天一整天打了牌。打到身体都累。十二点多我们去了百货商店买东西。买了一些吃的，一瓶红酒，忘了。写到没东西写了。算了吧。

manchester in a walnut shell

it was a cold sunday morning, AS got up and took his shower. He then knocked on my door to find me still sleeping soundly, just like a pig. we were racing against time because as usually we're always late. and the traffic in london is just awful. YUCK! oh and we learned that, i'm a lil better than the satnav. and definitely better than a satnav when i'm equipped with a map. anyway,

we then made our way to bayswater for some duck and tapau some food to bring up to manchester. we went to harrow to collect EW up after that. EW's grandmother is COOL, having pizza and all. usually old people love their porridge and old people food. 

our assembled party of 3, a typical 3 pilot crew, then set out for a three and a half hour journey to manchester. with AS as Captain, me as 1st officer, and EW as 2nd officer. the motorway was kinda slow with accidents and road works. i can't recall what we talked about, just remembered we zipped through the traffic and singing to Teresa Teng's music. yes, we are aging. 

arrived in manchester pretty much on time for dinner. met some of AS and EW's flatmates. it's kinda fun to have friends living in the same building. but, they don't swear as much as me,at all actually, and won't do anything stupid with me. like walking up and down the corridor with a tie as a head band with no apparent reason. boring !!!

"do not do to others what you do not want them to do to you" - i've learn this whilst in manchester. AS made me sleep on the couch because i made him sleep on the couch when he was in london. #$@$^#^&$%#@#$%

on the 1st night. me and as went to the market at 4 or 5 in the morning. we were suppose to get seafood but we ended up with 12 pots of roses. i wonder how will Queen open up to the idea of 6 pots of roses in the house. while in the market, it was a wholesale market, we were contemplating on whether to get a box of giant prawn which cost 40 quid and 3kg of scallop. but as i've suggested earlier, we got neither. we then got back and felt hungry. AS was so poor that both of us had to share ONE egg ONLY and 2 cans of baked beans. just lavish. that was before i found out that he had 2 cans of cod roe in his cupboard. 

we got up at 3-4 in the evening the next day and has microwave food. mac and cheese. i watched 赤壁 (red cliff) while AS went back to bed. absolutely love that movie. love the scene where zhou yu fucked xiao qiao. after the movie, waited for the traffic to clear up then we rushed to wingyip just 20 minuted before it closes to get prawn and salted duck egg. we forced EW to give us 4 eggs as levy to us. for dinner me and AS had prawns, 5 quid worth of prawns translate to about 1KG of prawns. steamed chicken eggs with salted duck egg. the 3rd ingredient missing in the egg was century egg. they were out of stock. 

i waited eagerly for EW to join us but it never happened. it just never happened. we then went to a casino to gamble our disappointment away. the blow was too great for us to bear and we just could not stay in the house. after the casino we went to the market again just to find it not open. we returned home to watch a movie. which was another huge disappointment again. utter garbage. we were at the brink of crying ourselves to sleep that morning. 

it was not until evening we got up. AS cooked some chicken he had in the freezer and fried 2 duck eggs. it was good.  took a shower then EW came by. we watched CNN on the US election. it was a concrete evidence that a huge chunk of US population was disgustingly obese. then when EW got bored, we switched to some adult channels. both of them thought it was too mild for their taste. we ended up watching a documentary on the 6 wives of King Henry. i forgot which henry. i think it's the 7th. probably i'm wrong. 3 of his wives' name was Katherine. i suppose parents those days weren't very gifted. 

AS then decided he don't like me no more and sent me back to london that instance. we took approximately 3 hours to reach my house. after a packet of ramen then he left for manchester. he didn't reach manchester until 5.30 in the morning. he's probably asleep still right now. 

ps - i didn't know that picture of a harlot can be so... hmm... can't find a word.... not pretty, not cute, not beautiful.. but so.. so enticing. yup, that's about right.

hitchhiking

i hitchhiked to manchester. cool....

we had 3 roasts(duck,chicken,pork) for dinner with a few of as and rainbowl's friends.

after they left, we drank 'da hong pao' [ 大红袍 ] and ice wine. suppose to be good.

ice wine - spells like apple juice and taste like honey (terrible).