extra number

i have in my possession and subscription an extra mobile number.. have no idea what to do with it.. it's basically RM30 monthly lying idle. ugh~ wasteful wasteful wasteful

guess what.. i'm applying for jobs all over again. and as usual, it's a bitch. with every additional job applied, my self-esteem drop a lil. it's an inverse relation. marginal in characteristic. another ugh~

i can't help to think currently my 'unhealthy', complex relationships are getting complicated.. slowly it causing quite a bit of confusion and misunderstanding. whilst that, i have to hold my tongue to avoid awkward situation to my real deal. i'm quite confident that the real deal hadn't got the slightest clue on what's goin. and i finally finished my lyric to a song.. a song that's yet to be written. will 'outsource' it to people with the relevant skills. any song that i produce would probably be trash.