a pathetic excuse of a person

if only you know how much it means to me that you tell me what was going on.. my this one decision is very much dependent on you and it is this very decision that will shape my prospects. i cannot linger around for long as i cannot afford to stand stationary here while everything else is dynamic.. ceteris paribus does not exist in the real world. yet i'm not in the position to demand an answer from you.

my friends said, "stop chasing shadows. they're not healthy." deep down, i know they're right. but some part of me just want to keep on chasing.. in my own defence, for a shadow to appear, there must be a mass that's casting those shadows. the problem is we tend to go after the shadow rather than the mass.. for all that matter, the mass may be a million miles away, in places that is not accessible to one.

on my own account, i realised that all i have now, it's either borrow, stolen, or even donated.. i've never really earned anything in life before. i had things easily available to me. never had to work hard for anything. in spite of that, i assure you that i do know the value of those.. even honestly believe that i understand each and every pain and suffering that i never went through.

regrets? i have none that's made an impact on my life. because i understand that at any given point, none of the circumstances are ever the same. we act on our decisions that we made at that particular time based on those particular circumstances.. we cannot change circumstances any more than the past. so remorse? u're barking up the wrong tree buddy.

much been said but i'm still without a conclusion.