bombard

i've just bombarded a few firms with my applications... and i have a feeling in a weeks' time, they're going to retaliate by bombarding me with rejection letters... hahaha

so used to it that it's funny now... sigh...

why in the world am i so useless... and nothing is helping... argh... 

sometimes you just wish you're dead.. then you'll have nothing to worry.. just sleep 24/7 for eternity...