comfort

lately, i've caught myself smirking randomly. it's fine when there is nobody around. but it's embarrassing when someone else sees it. i ought to stop. damn..

i'm losing my touches. i can't do what i could no longer. too much fear and too little courage. courage is practically non-existance anymore. i spend my days contemplating without any actual decisions. it's like i can't navigate my life.

the very heart of the problem is disparities between what i want and what i can get. periphery problems are like the worth of such acts and risk appetites. in whichever case, it takes two party to tango or fight.

on the issue regarding my relocation to singapore. hmm... it will takes at least one dramatic reason for me to do that. i've kinda settled in my reasonably comfortable zone in penang. why won't i be?

真的行吗？

没人可以找人，没兵可以练兵，没有势可以造势。真的行吗？

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i had to take shelter at a friend's place yesterday. i had a place without electricity for a night. haha...
forgot to pay the bill. came as to no surprise..

i thought i had a lot to write whilst in office. my mind is all blank now. damn...

oh yea.. i'm rooting for sei lui bao to win !